depression

Helpless

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I wrote this in light of my daughter’s fight with depression. I can’t help her the way I want to. It has to come from her. I can take her to all the therapy appointments and doctor appointments but still it has to come from her.

I feel so helpless, like a caged bird
Who can only watch the world outside
As it goes on without me, unaware
Of my pain and my sorrow.

I feel so helpless, like a drowning man
Who can’t reach the surface for air
As the water closes in around me,
Tugging me down into darkness.

I feel so helpless, like a lost child
Who can’t find their way home
As the night falls and the shadows grow,
Enveloping me in fear.

I Will Over Come This

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This is the dark night of the soul
A time when all seems lost and cold
When hope has fled and joy is gone
And all you feel is pain and dread

But this is not the end
This is not the final word
For even in the darkest night
There is always light to be found

So don’t give up, don’t give in
Keep fighting, keep believing
For there is a light at the end of the tunnel
And you will overcome this

You are not alone in this
There are others who have walked this path
And they have found their way out
So you can too

So keep going, keep fighting
Don’t give up on yourself
For you are stronger than you think
And you will overcome this

The dark night of the soul is a time of great transformation
It is a time when you are forced to face your inner demons
And to come to terms with your pain

But it is also a time of great growth
It is a time when you learn to find your strength
And to find your light

So don’t be afraid of the dark night of the soul
Embrace it, learn from it, and grow from it
For it is a necessary part of your journey

And when you come out the other side
You will be a stronger, wiser, and more compassionate person

So keep going, keep fighting
Don’t give up on yourself
For you will overcome this

Mental Health

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We’re taught to bottle up our feelings,
To hide our pain and fears,
To put on a brave face,
And pretend that everything’s fine.

We’re told that mental health
Is not something to discuss,
That it’s a sign of weakness,
Or something to be ashamed of.

But the truth is,
Mental health is just as important
As physical health.
It’s something that we all need to take care of,
And it’s something that we should talk about.

We need to break the stigma
Around mental health,
And we need to start talking about it,
So that others don’t feel alone.

We need to let people know
That it’s okay to not be okay,
And that there is help available.

We need to start talking about mental health,
So that we can all start to heal.

So let’s start talking,
Let’s start breaking the stigma,
And let’s start taking care of our mental health.

I Can’t Stop Crying

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I see the pain in your eyes,
The tears that you cannot hide.
I know the darkness that you feel,
The thoughts that fill your mind.

I want to take your pain away,
To make the darkness go.
But I can’t, my darling child,
This is your journey to go.

I can only be here for you,
To listen and to hold you.
To tell you that I love you,
And that I believe in you.

I know that you are strong,
And that you can get through this.
But I also know that it is hard,
And that you need my help.

So please, let me help you.
Let me be your shoulder to cry on.
Let me be your voice of reason,
When the darkness tries to win.

I love you, my darling child.
And I will be here for you,
No matter what.

Burns My Heart

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I’ve seen you cry before,
But never like this before.
Your tears are hot and salty,
They burn my heart like fire.

I want to take your pain away,
To make it all go away.
But I know that I can’t,
That’s something you must do.

I just wish I could understand,
Why you’re hurting so bad.
What could have made you cry
Like this, my darling child?

I know that you’re growing up,
That you’re facing new challenges.
But I never thought that it would hurt
This much to see you cry.

I love you more than words can say,
And I’ll always be here for you.
No matter what you’re going through,
I’ll be right here by your side.

So please, don’t cry anymore.
I can’t stand to see you hurt.
Let me help you through this,
Together we can get through it.

Why Bother

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Why Bother?

You sit and stare at the blank page,
Your mind a jumble of thoughts.
You know you have something to say,
But the words just won’t come out.

You’ve been writing for years,
But you’ve never had any success.
You’ve been rejected by agents,
And your blog is barely read.

So why bother? Why keep writing?
What’s the point of putting yourself out there,
Only to be met with failure?

Maybe you should just give up.
Maybe you’re not meant to be a writer.
Maybe you should just find something else to do.

But then you think about all the stories
That are still inside of you,
All the poems that are still unwritten.

And you know that if you give up now,
You’ll never know what could have been.

So you pick up your pen and start writing,
Even though you know it might not amount to anything.

Because even if you never achieve success,
At least you’ll have tried.

And that’s all that matters.

Reaching out and no one is there.

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I wrote a lot today. My emotions have been all over the place and poetry is my outlet.

Reaching out in the darkness
To find a hand to hold
I find only empty air
Where I thought you would be

I call your name in silence
But there is no reply
I feel so alone and lost
And I don’t know why

I thought we had something special
Something that could last
But now I see that I was wrong
And you never cared at all

I reach out again, but this time
I don’t expect a reply
I know that you’re not there
And I’m finally starting to cry

I’m so tired of being alone
I just want someone to care
But I know that’s not going to happen
So I’ll just have to learn to bear

The pain of being alone
And the emptiness inside
I’ll never forget you
But I’ll have to let you go

The Pain Sneaks in

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I feel like running away.
Hiding away from life.
Isolating myself, if not for a little while.

The pain sneaks in.
Nothing matters and nothing makes sense.
It sneaks up on me, but it’s always been there.
This pain of knowing no matter what I do, they will leave.

I look around and wonder what’s wrong with me.
But I’ve always asked that, and I’ve never found an answer.

How Long Do You Wait?

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How Long Do You Wait?

How long do you wait?
The agonizing silence.
The dread and dismay you feel as you wonder what went wrong.
The gloom and desperation you feel as you reach out to nothing. 
How long do you wait?
The harrowing silence. 
Dejection and grief you feel as you wonder what went wrong.
The sadness and heartache you feel as you reach out to nothing. 
The silence rings in your ears as you feel nothing. 
You reach out and grasp, but it is only figments of what was.

The Things They Say

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They say the right things,
Music to your soul.
But it's like a dagger to your heart.
As the words are corrupted. 

Like a slow seeping venom,
It creeps in and infects you.

When you think you are part of their life,
But you realize you are not. 

Like a dagger to the heart, 
Blood flows freely.
The deception is clear,
But the pain seeps into
Every fabric of your being. 

Numbing you,
As your tears dry on your face.

You feel nothing as those words ring in your ears.