Things I learned Along the Way: Book Covers (Indie Writer Series # 2)

As an indie writer, you learn things over time. I am not by any means a successful writer. I am still putting more time and money in than I am getting out. Let’s just say I will not be stopping my day job anytime soon. Needless to say, there are things we learn, and I would like to share some of those with the readers of my blog over time.
Today, well yesterday I learned that even though I paid an artist for my cover art, they still use stock photos and someone else could use my stock photo. I assumed, and wrongly so, that if I pay an artist for artwork it is their artwork and no one else could use it. Well in this case, my artist used a stock photo. In other cover art this particular artist did for me, they did extensive edits, so it no longer looks like the original photo.

So here is an example

This is my book cover:

In this case it has changed so much that it does not look like the original but in another case, it was identical. Needless to say, I am redoing the cover.

So, I decided why to spend 200 dollars on a cover when it is just stock photos?

So here is one that was made for me. I don’t know if it was stock photos, but I paid 200 dollars for it and now I wonder why I did that. And next to it is one I made this morning. Since I am making this into a series, I want all the covers to look the same.

Obviously the one made by the artist is better, but is it worth 200 dollars and the chance for someone to copy it? Heck, they could copy the ones I made without me paying 200 dollars.

Just something I wanted to share with other writers. I was quite upset last night when I saw the exact same cover for this book on someone else’s book. Yes, I am redoing this cover.

Chances are if you get a copy of Maeve with this cover, it will be the original cover as I am changing it, so it does not look like anyone else’s cover. Things you learn….

My Dreams

I have been writing for years. I started writing my first book in 2009 after I miscarriage my first child. It was published in 2008. It was horrible. So, I rewrote it and published it again under a new name in 2018. Then I started writing poetry and a paranormal book series. But I feel like none of what I write gets read. I learned a lot about writing and how to publish but it feels like nothing I do is right. Marketing is a struggle for me. I worked extensively with an artist for my book covers and editors to make my books perfect, but still, I can’t get them to see. At times it makes me want to stop but then inspiration hits and I want to write something new. Depression and anxiety definitely get in the way. When will I be able to say I made it? When should I stop and realize it is not worth it? When is enough, enough?

My dreams
Are they only Dreams?
Will they ever come to fruition?
Or are they only dreams?

How do you keep going?
How long do you fight?
Day after day and still no results.

My dreams?
Are they only dreams?


Kindle Rewards

Okay so if you are like me, then you love reading and buying books. I swear it’s like candy to me. I recently found out that Amazon has this program called Kindle rewards. They just started it, or I would have loads of points. You get points for every book you buy and then you can redeem them…wait for it…. TO BUY MORE BOOKS. I KNOW RIGHT, AS IF I NEED MORE BOOKS!

So, check out this link. Oh, and check out my books. You can get my books now and earn reward points.

https://www.amazon.com/kindlerewards

Panic

Photo by Meghan Hessler on Unsplash
Panic

Panic, heart racing
Blood rushing in my ears
Pulse echoing in my chest

Panic, heart racing
Hands shaking, 
Flush face

Panic, heart racing
Sweat on my brows
Breathing ragged

Panic, heart racing
When will it end

I bit my lip to try and control it
Breath in deeply, trying to steady myself

When will it end?
When will I be normal?
Why can’t I think and react like normal people?


The Darkness

The darkness surrounds us
Like a blanket it wraps us and pulls us under
We fight and struggle, but we cannot move
The air is stiff as we struggle to breathe
With each moment, panic sets in
Our heart races as the darkness takes its hold
We can’t breathe as the air comes out of our lungs
Wrapping around us, tighter and tighter.
The darkness pulling us further and further into its grasp
Photo by I.am_nah on Unsplash

I Miss You

Photo by Sasha Freemind on Unsplash
I miss you, my friend.
I miss what I thought we were.
I miss how we talked
I miss how we laughed
I miss how we helped each other. 

Was it all a lie?
Did you just put up with me?
Did you ever like me?
Or was I just a means to an end?
How can I find others now,
When all you were was a lie?


Facade

Covered in mud and decaying
You can’t see who they truly are
They hid in the bushes
You can’t see who they truly are

Their face they hide
You can’t see who they truly are
A mask of deception, done their face
You don’t know their true intentions

You think you know them
The facade they show you,
You think you know them
The face they want you to see,
You think you know them

It is only what they want you to see
Photo by Sander Sammy on Unsplash

One Chip Challenge

Podcast Interview

I recently did a podcast about my book series “The Shadow Realm Chronicles.” Here it is, I hope you enjoy it!

Here is the YouTube link. You can also find it on Spotify, and Google Podcasts.

Tricks

Made on Canva by Nancy Ann

Having an anxiety filled day. Need to get it all out in a poem.

Tricks
Those old feelings creep up.
The dread and desire to hide.
My heart races, and my mind wonders.

To run and hide, away from the pain
It is just my mind, is it real or just in my mind?
These thoughts keep coming, creeping up on me.

Are they real? Is what I am thinking real?
Of my anxiety playing tricks on me?