Ghost of a Life That is Not Mine
What have I done wrong,
To keep me from your mind?
Forgotten and left aside,
A memory of one who came before.
A ghost of a life that was not mine.
A memory of one who shares my face.
Lost in an endless tide, reaching but never touching.
Summers in the sun, the surf at our feet.
Summers in the sand, drawing, and laughing.
Summers on the street, bikes and games and more.
A ghost of a life that was not mine.
A memory of one who shares my face.
Lost in an endless tide, reaching but never touching.
My childhood lost in a daze
My Innocence long since forgotten
My memories fade away.
A ghost of a life that was not mine
A memory of one who shares my face.
Lost in an endless tide, reaching but never touching.
I feel invisible. I am invisible.
As if life is passing me by and no one seems to notice or care.
You run around me asking for help, but my hand you do not see.
I am invisible. I am invisible.
You walk right past me as if no one was there.
I am a shadow of the way I was, a body with no host.
You walk right past me as if I was a ghost.
I am a shadow of my former self, as I try to hold on to things of the past
A shadow of the life that I used to share.
I am invisible. I am invisible.
You walk right past me as if no one was there.
I am a shadow of the way I was, a body with no host.
You walk right past me as if I was a ghost.
You walk right past me as if I am nothing.
The tears I shed, go unnoticed as you no longer care.
You walk past me as if I was never there.
Why is my self-worth wrapped up in what you think?
I watched everything go by but seeing nothing as nothing is left for me.
Trapped in a box I cannot escape,
The water pulls me under, but you do not see
I am invisible, I am invisible
You walk right past me as if no one was there
I am a shadow of the way I was, a body with no host
You walk right past me as if I was a ghost.
Let me be me
Let me wear unmatched socks
Let me sign in the shower
And dance while I'm cooking
Let me be me
In all my odd behaviors
In all my rash moments
Call me eccentric
Call me odd
Call me anything but let me be me.
Let me paint. Let me write
Let me sing and let me dance
Let me make a fool of myself
Let me laugh at myself
Let me be me
THE MORNING The alarm resounds in my head, and I grumble and moan. It pulls me from my slumber with a start. My blankets wrapped around me keeping me warm as the cold morning air hits me.
I pull the covers over my head. It can’t be morning already. I want to hide from everyone and everything. Just lay and look up at the ceiling and dream.
I want to hide from the world and pull the blankets closer. The cold morning air wakes me, but I retreat under the covers. Never leave the warmth and safety of the bed Just lay and look up at the ceiling and dream.
I lay alone with all my thoughts, The quiet in the morning No one expecting anything from me In this quiet time, oh the thoughts that come
Alas I must rise, each day the same Running a race that never ends
Let me pull the covers back over my head. The race never ends, just to take some days alone with my kids. No work, no stress, just me and my kids.
I am trying to decide what the best color scheme is for it. Right now I have black with purple but I was wondering if that turns people off. I want a color scheme that is inviting, and some colors hurt people’s eyes. Sometimes in my experience bright reds and green hurt.
I write about a lot of things. Mostly I post poems, but that is not all. Can you please check my page out and see what you think? What are your ideas for the best most inviting color scheme? And if there is anything else I should add to my page.
This is a children’s book, written and illustrated by me. I hope you enjoy it!
My name is Zelda, and this is Foxy Roxy. He is my pet fox. I didn’t always have Foxy. Let me tell you how Foxy Roxy came into my life.
Today is my birthday. I am 42 years old. 42 is an odd age for me. My mother died when she was 42. So remember tomorrow is not a guarantee. Live life as if it’s your last day. God said the greatest commandment is love. Don’t forget that!
Need a new car? What do you do? I faced the dilemma of needing a new car earlier this month. My old car served us well for many years but now we needed to fix it or get a new one. My old care was stalling when we stopped, so I brought it to our mechanic and we found the car had an oil leak, a transmission problem, and various other problems. We had to decide if it was worth it to pour more money into this car or use the money to put down on a car. We had a few things to consider. Do we look at used car lots, buy a car or lease one?
I didn’t want to buy a used car. In the past, I had bad experiences with used cars, so I didn’t want to buy a used one. When you buy a used car, most times you are just trading your car’s problems for someone else’s. The car needed to be reliable and safe. I knew I didn’t want a used car.
My next question was whether to lease or buy. To answer this question, I had to weigh the pros and cons of each and decide what I can afford. First, when you buy a new car, your payments will be higher than that of a lease. My insurance will be high both whether I lease or buy so I didn’t need to worry about that right now. Either way, I will have to pay for full coverage. When you buy a car, you can drive as many miles as you want. There is no mileage penalty. When your payments are over, you own the car. It is yours, not so when you lease a car. You can make any upgrades you want. When you lease a car, you can’t change anything. What you see if what you get. When you buy a car, any wear and tear on the car are yours. No one will charge you for these scratches, dents, and stains.
Thinking of leasing a car? Sure the payments are lower, but when your lease is up, you don’t have a car. The car is not yours; it belongs to the dealership. You could lease a new car every 3 years. Drive a new car every 3 years. Your car is under warranty for the entire length of your lease, so the dealership will cover anything that goes wrong with the car. You must pay for the maintenance of the car, the oil changes, brakes, and tires. So what do we do? Buy a car or lease one?
I wound up leasing a car as it was 200 dollars less a month to lease than to buy. I paid extra for scratch protection on the car. It is a sealant that goes on the outside and inside of the car. It could cover most scratches and stains. My plan is to drive a new car every 2 to 3 years. So far the car is amazing and since I had full coverage for my old car, my insurance didn’t go up all that much. Before buying or leasing a car, weigh the pros and cons of each and make the best-educated decision you can.Â
When I woke, I found myself in a place void of light. The darkness was overwhelming. I could sense it deep marrow of my bones in the depths of my soul. There was no love, no hope just complete darkness.
I tried to move, but I felt as if something was holding me keeping me from moving. My eyes hadn’t adjusted to the lack of light. If they had, I might have seen him approaching me. Shadows were everywhere. I didn’t know if I could speak out of fear of the unknown. What was he I thought? I thought I had seen the Shadow smile if that were possible.
“Who are you? Where am I?” I couldn’t believe I could speak even though my voice must have sound weak and feeble to him.
“I am The Shadow King, the Lord of The Shadow Realm and you are my slave.” he laughed. “You can’t even stand up,  but that will change. You will become a ferocious warrior. I brought you here to give you a chance, a chance to be great and the only thing you can do is grieve and whimper. Don’t you want this chance? A chance to return to your loved ones. You miss them don’t you?”
He answered without giving me a chance to reply.
“You miss them because of your mortal heart, but you do not know or realize how much darkness is in your heart. You will make a great slave.” He smiles as he knew his plan was coming together. By using Maeve’s own grandson against her. Soon she will be as dark as me.
“But how will I get back to my loved ones, if I am your slave!” Â Each time I closed my eyes I saw her, my fairy. Maurelle was in pain. I couldn’t lose her. I couldn’t lose them. Where were my kids? What happened to them? “I will not lose her! I will not lose them” My mind drifted to the first time I saw her. How her wings glistened in the sunlight. She has been my light in my darkest of days but something tells me my darkest days are yet to come.
