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The Quiet Night

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The Quiet Night

A struggle to belong, to find my place,
Stumbling through life, mistakes I embrace.
Blunders and missteps, a shadow they cast,
Day after day, the die seems to be cast.

Disliked, an outsider, I feel it so deep,
Friendly smiles, a facade I can’t keep.
Loneliness lingers, a constant despair,
Do they truly care, is anyone there?

Grappling with doubt, uncertainty’s sting,
What am I doing wrong, what sorrow I bring?
Isolation suffocates, a heavy embrace,
Is solitude’s path the one I must chase?

Different, I may be, a truth hard to face,
Do I belong here, in this crowded space?
Perhaps it’s time to accept what’s in sight,
A solitary journey, into the quiet night.

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One Night

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One night, two people.
Calling me names, blasting me to others.

Some say it doesn’t matter.
I should forget it and move on.
It’s their loss and blah blah blah...

Bullshit!

Why does it hurt so badly if all these other people say it shouldn’t.
Why am I the target? Am I weak?
Why is it so hard to walk away? Why do I want to keep talking?

And why do I get so angry? Why am I so hurt?

Honesty and Fear

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They ask you to be honest, 
but is that is what they really want? 
When you speak honestly, 
does it always work out?
Should you be honest? 
Should you speak the truth?

You fear when you speak,
your heart races, will you hurt someone? 
Time and time again people ask you,
to be yourself.
Do they know what they are asking for?

I am far too honest
at the wrong times.
I am insecure and,
I never think highly of myself. 
I need constant reassurances and, 
Often feel guilty for the things I say and do.

You say be yourself and be honest.
But the fear is overwhelming.