I see the changes in you.Â
It saddens me but you won’t know or care.
Do you feel lost? Do you want to scream?Â
Do you see and feel the changes in yourself?
I know we don’t talk anymore; Â
I know you don’t want me around.Â
But then I see the changes in you and they worry me.
I pray for you, but you will never know. Â
I pray that you see the light again.
I pray that you surround yourself with goodness.
I am tired of pretending that I am okay when I’m not.
I am tired of trying to be someone that I’m not.
You don’t like me as I am; you want me to change, but why.
I am tired of making excuses for how I act.
Why did I try to work on things when no one else cares?
I am tired of being lonely but if that is what I have to do to be myself so be it.
I am angry and want to last out but it won’t matter.
Nothing I say or do matters to them.
They don’t care what happens to me.
I want to cry and lay on the bed all day, but it won’t solve anything.
I want to lash out but it won’t matter.
Nothing matters.
I’m driving by on cruise control. Watching others just pass me by. Watching the world speed on by. I’m driving by on cruise control. Watching others just pass me by. Watching the world speed on by.
Sometimes I just don’t know which way to go. Should I turn left or right? Should I keep on driving on cruise control?
I’m driving by on cruise control. Watching others just pass me by. Watching the world speed on by. I’m driving by on cruise control. Watching others just pass me by. Watching the world speed on by.
Watching the world just pass me by. Everything goes by so very fast. Speeding by as I go by. When you’re living life on Cruise control.
I see your lights up ahead. I see your flashes but, I’m staying in my lane. As I drive by on cruise control.
Maybe I should take a chance See where this turn will take me. Put my foot down on the gas. See where this road takes me. See how far I can go. Will I reach my goal or should I stay on cruise control?
Should I make a stand or stay where I am? Sooner or later I’ll make my move Sooner or later I’ll reach my goal
Make that turn and, Put my foot down on the gas! I’m at the wheel, I’m following! It’s all my choice which way I go.
Should I make that turn, Take a chance. See where this turn will take me. Put my foot down on the gas. See how far I can go. Will I reach my goal or should I stay on cruise control?
Failure, disappointment and regret.
There is an ache in my heart each time we lose another.
For all that are lost, this despair won’t dissolve.
How could we have done more?
What could I have done?
Why do so many lives end this way?
The pain and sickening feeling each time I get the news.
Another one lost, and still another.
What can be done, when so many are lost.
What can we do to stop this?
Too young to be a statistic.
My fingers and feet move constantly as I sit waiting.
I pace back and forth and try not to think of what lies ahead of me.Â
When will this be over?
This fear I have inside.
When will I know?
And stop the constant waiting that is eating away my soul.Â
I can’t sit still. I have to keep moving.Â
Keeping busy, to keep my mind filled.
The dishes, the laundry, vacuuming, anything I can.
My thoughts race to what will happen and I plan for the worst.
I play out scenarios and worry myself even more.Â
I find myself constantly checking, every moment I have.Â
Still nothing and my heart beats even faster than before.Â
How can it take so long?Â
I look for results.
I check over and over again.
I keep looking for answers,
My heart can’t handle the unknown.
I pace back and forth.
Fidget in my seat.
Tap my feet and twiddle my thumbs,
But nothing helps me to realize my stress.
The waiting and not knowing.
The waiting and unknown are eating away at me.Â
Worrying brings nothing but despair.Â
 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? Matthew 6:27.
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